Depression. Worries for the future.
I know I couldn't write about what happened to Jason last summer, right away because I had no way of remembering my password to this account, let alone had internet access. But anyway, it's now been 6 months since he passed unexpectedly and I'm finding myself, where do I go from here? This is so not where I intended to be in life. I did NOT want to be single again at the age of 37. Last year did NOT end for me the way I wanted it to. I think about how a year ago today, Jason was still here, but his drinking had gotten really bad. I'll admit as I have, it has gotten somewhat easier to live by myself in the apartment that we found together, 4 years ago. But it would still be nice to have someone, an actual person to come home to who isn't drunk, and still be able to tell them what happened today. Ever since he left, life has been dull. Now that I'm once again living alone, I don't have much of anything better to do or anywhere to go. Everyday is pretty much t...