Aspie chick with a wild streak

Ok, I'll just say this: Being different sucks. When it comes to being profoundly different and people can see that, people suck when it comes to being different. I wish I wasn't born so profoundly different, nobody wanted anything to do with me. If I could take some kind of pill and not have the disabilities I came into this world with, I would take the damn shit in a fucking heartbeat! I said it before and I"ll say it again. Being in Mr. Ludwig's 6th grade class sucked! Mr. Ludwig's 6th grade class sucked. Mr. Ludwig was an immature asshole, who would let other people in my class single me out on purpose, and I was scared of his temper! I don't know who's brilliant idea it was to even have me in that class with those people in the first place, but I think they put me in the wrong god damn fucking class! And after how those bitches in the other 6th grade class treated me afterwards through middle school and 9th and 10th grade, I'm not so sure I'd ...

Ok, so far I've only posted 8 other posts besides this one, and I'm still getting used to using this type of website for blogging. Anyways, the scoop is, I still have these bad memories from when I guess you can say, I'd get bullied and singled out between the 6th grade and 10th grade, before I moved to Wisconsin. Still occasionally think of those girls who I stupidly thought were my "Friends" in elementary school, and then they all just treated me like complete crap in the 6th grade. It really makes me question, whether or not I ever really had any friends, while going to Kate Mitchell School. My guess is NO! I don't know why the memories of how they've treated me from 6th grade on up keep coming up. They might have even done other mean things to me, where I didn't even realize that what they were doing was mean, and they were only being nice to me when teachers and parents were around. But anyways,  I remember back when I was 20 and it was the summer...

So, I just got done watching the movie, Angus on my computer, in which I downloaded off of Itunes. damn I need to find a way so I can burn that movie to a dvd, and scratch it off my list of dvds that I want to have. Anyways. I have to say, that is a good movie. I remember when I saw previews for that movie on tv, back when I was 11. And I really thought it would be a stupid movie about a fat kid. Then I ended up watching the whole movie when I was a kid at age 11. I kind of understood the obvious things that were happening in the movie, but I never really fully understood the whole message in that movie when I was 11. But I guess in order to really understand what the message is in that movie, you have to have been in middle school and high school, to really understand the movie. And if the movie has one good message in it at all, the message is, that it's ok to be different, and try not to care too much about what other people think. If they don't like that thing about you tha...

Well, I got to do my usual tradition I have every summer in June, where I go to this carnival that the town I live in has, for this mini summer festival. The carnival is fun as always. It would be more fun if Jason and I could attend festivals, have the weather be perfect, and none of us was feeling sick or depressed. But anyway, last night was fun. I went on rides with my buddy, Jack, from the support group, and it felt nice feeling the cool breeze go through my hair on a hot summer evening, while going on the carnival rides. I still have no idea what that one yellow ride is called, but I've been calling it the "Round up". However, I think the name that maybe more fitting for that ride would be "the Rotator". I'll put pictures of it up later. Anyways after I got done going on rides for the night, I got us a funnel cake, and we split it. One thing I've noticed is every time I've gone to that carnival at night time, there's always been a thunderst...

You know, for about maybe 2 years now, I've been thinking, my friends Jeremae Cox, and Megan Ellingburg should meet eachother, someday. They do have a bit of  similarities with eachother. And I'm hoping if they do, they do like each other, just fine. I mean let's see: 1. They both have light Cerebral Palsy and ADHD at the same time, but they can both walk 2. Their birthdays are really close together, by like a month apart. 3. They're pretty much the same age 4. They're both on the same boat, in some ways when it comes to the whole needing to be on SSI and needing to live in low income housing. 5. they both live a far distance away from the Waukesha county of Wisconsin, but they're both looking into moving back into the Waukesha county area, at some point in the future. 6. I know that they're both maybe up for making new friends and meeting new people. 7. They might like a lot of the same activities and movies 8. They're kids are very close toget...

1. Cuddle bear 2. Cuddles 3. Honey Boo-boo kitty funk 4. Golly Wally 5.Joey Bob Gladstone 6. J-Goll Now, isn't that cute? I needed to post something where I actually sound happy, for a change. LOL!

Ok, on Monday of this week, I saw that they had brought up the carnival rides into the field park, for the annual carnival that's going to be going on this weekend. And then between this Monday and yesterday, they've been setting them up. Yesterday, they were all done setting them up. Today on my way home from the gym, I saw the rides all set up and running, and I sure can't wait to go this saturday, with my good friend, Jack, and my sweet cuddle bear, Jason. On another note, I got a call from my friend, Megan. And she said she's really just getting fed up with the BS that she's had to put up with from this stupid old man she's been living with now, for 11 years now. And I"m hoping and praying that she's finally just ready to leave him, and be done with it.When I talked to her the other day, she was at her mom's house, which I'm hoping this is a sign that she's making some attempt to get away from him, and thank god, if she is. She's a...

So, yesterday, when I was at work, my current boyfriend, Jason happens to tell me that he heard from one of his friends that my old ex-boyfriend just recently moved back to town. How do I feel about this? Depressed. I know that maybe at one time it might have been what I wanted, but that was 5 years ago. And things have changed since then. Four years ago, my ex and I broke up for a reason, and for a very good reason. And then a year after that, he moved to Tennessee, to be with his family. And I was kind of hoping that once he moved down there to be with his family, that would be it, and I could just get on with my life, especially now that things with me and Jason have gotten serious. All I care is that if he is back in Mukwonago, he doesn't come looking for me or that he doesn't come after me. I mean, maybe he won't but he does have a history of forcing himself on me, sexually. I know, he might have given me his phone number, but I didn't give him mine. Maybe as long ...

You know, this type of blog website reminds me of another possible blog website that I may have looked at. I remember maybe it was 2 years ago now since I've seen a documentary about it on tv, but there was this girl named Eva who was around my age. And unfortunately, she died just days before her 26th birthday. But she had Cystic Fibrosis, though. Anyways, when watching the documentary, it showed some of her blogs, and how she'd talk to other girls who had her illness on blogs and on the internet, and this type of blog website was what it looked like she might have been using. Unfortunately her friend, Meg, who they also showed in the documentary who also had CF, has passed away this year from the same thing. But at least those girls are now in a better place where they can chill in heaven. You know, I wonder if this is the same type of website these girls used, when the documentary on their illnesses was filmed. And you can find out more about Eva's story on www.65redrose...

Well, what to say about myself. I'm currently in a relationship with a great guy. I met him, 3 years ago. I'm a runner. ran varsity for the girls track and cross country team when I was in high school, for 3 years. I like to run and swim, and be in some kind of physical shape, in the summer. Summertime is my favorite season of the year. My favorite holidays of the year are Halloween and Christmas.I'm passionate about autism, and hope they find a cure for it, one day. I'm a democrat. I'm a big chocoholic. I also like Mexican, Seafood, Chineese food and Sushi. I like to travel. I'm a big sucker for water parks and amusement parks, and carnivals. My favorite animals are killer whales, dolphins, and other types of marine life. I also like body surfing, and making slideshow videos, burning cds, dvds, and I also know how to make something called, Yo-yo's. I also like dancing, photography, watching movies and tv, and cruising the internet.