Aspie chick with a wild streak

Over the years since I've been out of high school, I've seen friends, relatives and classmates of mine get married while in their 20's and 30's. They get to have that ceremony where they get to wear the perfect dress, perfect tuxedo, they get to have the bridesmaids and groomsmen of their choice, as well as a reception with the wedding cake, the dancing, the DJ playing the music the bride and groom like, and all their friends and family members are there for it. Well in my case, that's just not going to happen for me. I had this idea on where I'd want to get married and have a reception. But now, it's just not going to happen, ever. Because like getting that dream job, it's not a reality. It's just a fantasy.  At the rate things are going, it's now looking like I'll never get married. At least not while I'm still young. By the time I finally do, I'll be as old as my dad's sister  if not older. The only kind of guy who will ever wa...

Favorite Def Leppard songs: 1. Pour Some Sugar on me 2. Rock of Ages 3. Animal 4. Rocket 5. Armageddon it 6. Hysteria 7. Let's Get Rocked 8. 2 Steps Behind 9. I Miss You in a Heartbeat

I fucking hate that the majority of people on both sides of my extended family are boys and men. I hate that I feel no sense of closeness with any of my relatives, because of my disability. I hate that they want nothing to do with me, because of what the fuck I have for a disability. I hate not just the fact that most of my cousins on my mom's side are guys, and that a large majority of them are mentally messed up in the head, and their taste in women absolutely suck. I hate the women they're with because those women are either sluts and whores  and bitches, or they're with someone whose almost 10 years older than they are. Probably because they just want someone to mommy them for the rest of their lives. And I already hate those women my cousins are with because they're pretty messed up in the head, themselves. And I hate that all my cousins on my mom's side of the family that are boys are alcoholics. YUCK! 3 out of my mom's older sister's sons are drunkard...

I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America. And to the Republic for which it stands, one nation indivisible with liberty and justice for all. Fuck Donald Trump. I do not pledge allegiance to the flag of the divided States of Russia, or to the Republicans for which they stand. One nation, under Trump, with liberty and justice for none. Again, Fuck Donald Trump!

Hello, just checking in. I have to say, the first 2 days of the week, it was so nice monday and Tuesday of this week, you'd never think it was going to be crappy the rest of the week. It should NOT be snowing in April. While it thunderstorms in Iowa, it snows up here. It's so not fair. I was kinda hoping I'd see it thunderstorm tonight. But no such luck. All it dod was rain on and off. Whenever the forecast says it's going to rain or snow, it usually does. But if ot says its going to thunderstorm, it doesn't. All it does is rain. Hopefully there will still be other chances for it to thunderstorm next week. Anyway,  been trying to lose some weight. This week it's just been yo-yo-ing between 133 and 134lbs. At the rate things are going with that, it's either going to take all summer just to get down to 120lbs. Either that, it's going to take a full year just to see my weight hit that number. Otherwise, I'm never going to see those numbers on the scal...