Aspie chick with a wild streak

 I know I couldn't write about what happened to Jason last summer, right away because I had no way of remembering my password to this account, let alone had internet access. But anyway, it's now been 6 months since he passed unexpectedly and I'm finding myself, where do I go from here? This is so not where I intended to be in life. I did NOT want to be single again at the age of 37. Last year did NOT end for me the way I wanted it to. I think about how a year ago today, Jason was still here, but his drinking had gotten really bad. I'll admit as I have, it has gotten somewhat easier to live by myself in the apartment that we found together, 4 years ago. But it would still be nice to have someone, an actual person to come home to who isn't drunk, and still be able to tell them what happened today. Ever since he left, life has been dull. Now that I'm once again living alone, I don't have much of anything better to do or anywhere to go. Everyday is pretty much t...

Ok, maybe it's just because it's the first month of the year, but it feels like unless I'm living with someone besides my 2 cats, life seems to have fallen flat.I'm up all night, sleep all morning. If I'm not doing that, I'm watching tv all morning. At least I got myself to go swimming at the gym for an hour. Then I came home, had lunch and slept. When I woke up it was already getting dark out. Luckily in another couple of months it won't be so dark out after 3 or 4 or even 5pm. It'll be a nice change. At least I can say I made it through the first week of January. The only thing to look forward to in January is seeing and being able to notice how much lighter out it stays longer after 5pm on the dot.I got by booster shot for Covid this week. So for a couple of days, I've had the achy arms and back. Then I had stomach problems for part of the day on Wednesday, then the next day I had a sinus infection which had me lying down in my pj's all day, l...