Random stuff

Ok, maybe it's just because it's the first month of the year, but it feels like unless I'm living with someone besides my 2 cats, life seems to have fallen flat.I'm up all night, sleep all morning. If I'm not doing that, I'm watching tv all morning. At least I got myself to go swimming at the gym for an hour. Then I came home, had lunch and slept. When I woke up it was already getting dark out. Luckily in another couple of months it won't be so dark out after 3 or 4 or even 5pm. It'll be a nice change. At least I can say I made it through the first week of January. The only thing to look forward to in January is seeing and being able to notice how much lighter out it stays longer after 5pm on the dot.I got by booster shot for Covid this week. So for a couple of days, I've had the achy arms and back. Then I had stomach problems for part of the day on Wednesday, then the next day I had a sinus infection which had me lying down in my pj's all day, literally. Ick! And this weekend I finally started feeling better. I just never thought that I would go from being with someone at the beginning of last year to being single again, like I did. Last year basically wasn't off to a great start. For a time I did have some good things happen for me. But then when Jason unexpectedly died from a combination of diabetes complications and alcohol addiction at the end of the summer, not only did it ruin the rest of the summer for me but I think it ruined the rest of the year for me, as well, as mentioned before. I just hope that I can make it from January 1st to December 31st this year and that it ends better than it began. I also hear they're building a new attraction in the Chula Vista Resort in the Wisconsin Dells. Personally, I like the Kalahari Resort better, but I hear that there's even a package that includes the family dog. Then I did some research to see where else you could take the family dog if you take them with you to the Dells, and I found out there are some family restaurants that let you have dogs there. It got me thinking, maybe if my mom and I and possibly my sisters come as well, we should take miss Billie with us.Then she would be one spoiled little mutt! I actually went on zoom and attended the social group meeting for adults on the spectrum for the first time.I need to meet up with friends from there, and meet possibly any new people who might have started attending again via 2020 and 2021, before the fall of that year. Anyway, I met this guy named Taj who's my age. I felt like we had some simliarities.I saw him at sort of the holiday party in December, but got to talk to him and got to know him a little better this week. He seems kinda cool. I need someone spontaneous. He likes cats, too. And that's a good thing. But hey, I shouldn't push anything. Even if I'm starting to feel much better, it's only been almost 5 months since losing Jason. It might be a good idea to wait a year or a year and a half at most, just to make sure I've healed from losing Jason. It wouldn't make any sense to want to start dating someone new when I lost almost  Jason 5 months ago, when we were together for nearly 11 years. At least if I wait 1 year to 2 years, then I know I'll be more healed. I sure wasn't too happy to look at those Valentine's Day cards saying they're for someone's Fiance`, or for him or for their soul mate, when I know I won't be getting a card from anyone like that, ever again.So, this means I'm not ready, yet. Plus, as much as I might want to be with someone to fill that void, that shouldn't be the only reason I'm dating someone.No, I need to make sure I'm ready to make that commitment, 100%.