Upcoming wedding in Minnesota

Well one of my cousins in Minnesota are getting married in almost another 3 weeks. I'm excited to see some of my relatives for the occasion but I'm also nervous because I want people I know to be happy to see me and I know I might have a tendency to say or do things that might rub people the wrong way, unintentionally. And I'm afraid I might get people mad at me without meaning to. It's like on 1 hand I'm excited to see my Aunt Jane's kids because I haven't seen them in a long time but I'm nervous because I just want us to get along and I want us to be able to enjoy each other's company. At the same time to hear all of Jane's boys have these drinking problems, it makes me feel depressed because I don't want them to have issues like that. I do care about them and I just want them to be ok. They are my cousins, after all. And I want to be on good terms with them, I want them to let me know that they appreciate it when I try to do something nice for them. I might have wanted their approval when we were kids and I still want it, now. I think that also might be because we're around the same age. The question is, what would I have to do to get around whatever issues it is they might have so that we could still get along in spite of it. So far, it looks like I can contact the oldest boys, and they seem happy to hear from me, which makes me feel good. I sure hope so. It's just the youngest of the 3 of them. He acts like he's afraid of me and he hates me. And then to hear that they either have drinking problems or psychiatric problems makes me feel bad.

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