Aspie chick with a wild streak

 There's something I've noticed while being with Adam. If I go do something with him that he wants to do, I'm willing to go do it with him, even if it's not quite my cup of tea and keep an open mind to it, and he's fine. But if it's something I want to do and it's somewhere I want to go and it's not quite his "thing", he thinks he needs to have some kind of temper tantrum and storm off. And then he says if I'm going to go do things with my friends, he just doesn't want to be around me when I'm hanging with my friends. And if he's going to continue to have these tantrums and storm off in public whether I'm with my friends or not, he's going to end up making my social circle of friends and family not like him very much and he's going to end up isolating me from my friends.  And he's also just so rigid about stuff. I wish he could be more flexible. This shit has got to stop. Honestly, I don't know why I can'...

  Conversation from June 5, 2023: Crazy girl: Hi girl. I'm feeling a little nervous about getting married is that normal? Me: I would think so. Crazy girl: Yeah. Charles is probably feeling the same way. Charles is probably feeling the same way. I'm probably anxious about it. It's a big commitment. Me: Yes it is. Crazy girl: But I love him and ready to get married.  Me: When is the big day? Crazy girl:  June 10th Me: Oh OK. Crazy girl:  But I can't be there because of work. Me: You can't be at your own wedding?    Crazy girl: I will try Me: That doesn't make any sense Crazy girl:  I can't leave my job. I'm just afraid of getting fired. I can't leave because of my work and my dog. I don't know what the heck I'm going to do. Me: you work on Saturday? Well, if you are getting married for real, you would have to have that day off from work for the big day, number 1. And you would have to be living with the guy and know him real well inside an...

 Well, it's that time of year when we have the carnival in Field Park in Mukwonago. I'm sorry that I still like going on carnival rides at my age and nowadays I don't know if anyone will go with me on any of the rides. I'm so sick of having these boyfriends who will promise me we'll do something that I want to do, only to not follow through with doing it. I don't know why I even bother. I would never do that to any of them. I've also been thinking about the past years when I was still with  Jason, and think if only. I wish that at some point, he had quit drinking so many years prior to 2 or 3 years ago when he was still here. I think that if only he had quit smoking and drinking while we were together and never picked it back up again and just took better care of himself, listened to everyone who told him he needed to change that about himself, he could still be here. And we could have either gotten engaged at the end of the year 2 years ago, or we could hav...

 Let's see. This winter of 2023: January-March 1st: starting weight was 157lbs. By March 1st, it was at 149lbs. Total weight loss: 8lbs. This spring of 2023, my starting weight was 149lbs. And as of June 1st my weight loss was 142lbs. So this spring I've lost 7lbs. Total weight loss: 15lbs.  And now, I've already lost 3lbs as of June, this year. So this summer I've now lost 3lbs. Total weight loss: 18lbs. Still have 19 more to go.

 Let's see, my starting weight this year, we'll say was 157lbs. And during the winter season of January 5th-March 1st this year, I've lost a promising total of 8lbs.  This spring season, from March 1st to the end of May, I'll say I lost a total of 8lbs.  Total: 16lbs, so far.

 Ok, I like it when it thunderstorms, but it seems like whenever we get those, it always has to happen right when I need to go somewhere or when I'm out about. I mean, I know I can't control what the weather is going to do, but I just would rather it not do that when I have to go somewhere or want to go somewhere. Especially when I don't want to have to drive through it and right now the windshield wipers on the car that I've been driving haven't been working, lately. Personally, I think the best case scenario is it thunderstorms on a day or night when I'm at home and don't have to go anywhere. Ok, rant over