Aspie chick with a wild streak

Well, here we are approaching the new year 2020, and another Christmas has come and gone. And one thing I've wondered about is that if Christina Aguilera were to do another Christmas album, what songs would be on there. I know that she's already done one. I can't believe that was already almost 20 years ago. So anyway, if Christina Aguilera were to do another Christmas album, here's what songs I'd see her doing on there: 1. Santa Claus is Coming To Town (because of her kids) 2. Happy Christmas (War Is Over) (Because of her desire to give to those less fortunate) 3. What Child is This? 4. Feliz Navidad (Because of her being part Latino) 5.Santa Baby (Because her birthday is around the Christmas Season) 6. All I Want For Christmas is You (Mariah Carey was one of her Musical Influences) 7. Joy To The World 8. Rockin' Around the Christmas Tree 9. My Grown Up Christmas List 10. Sleigh Ride 11. Hark The Herald Angels Sing 12. Rudolph The Red Nosed Reidnee...

So, about maybe a month or 2 ago now, who should just happen to contact me on my Instagram? Brian Burger! You know, it's pathetic. About 11 years ago, I decided I no longer wanted to be friends with him. And he finds me on instagram. Anyway, just shortly after my friend's ex-husband contacts me, who else do I end up hearing from? My friend's oldest daughter. Anyways, my friend's daughter, Aleisia ended up sending me a message asking me to help her reconnect with her mom. Now, in a way, I guess I should be a little bit concerned because for all though I'm glad that she found me on instagram, I'm hoping it's not because her dad showed her my profile.I guess it's a little fishy that he would find me on Instagram and then my friend's oldest daughter would contact me on there. But as long as she willingly wanted to get a hold of me so she could reconnect with her mom who she hasn't seen now in 10 years, I'm glad I could help her out. My concern th...

Okay so back in August so close to Labor Day this year, a guy named Devin Wilson was killed in an automobile accident. When I first heard about it, I was in total shock that this would even happen to him of all people, and I ask why? And I know it wouldn't make any sense to why I would even be grieving and crying over what happened when it had happened almost 3 weeks later. I guess after being in some shock, the feeling of grief finally started kicking in 2 and a half weeks later. I guess we all deal with grief differently, and at different times. Even though I haven't seen him in 17 years, I still have some good memories of him.I was a Junior in high school when I met Devin and his brother, Garrett, while going to Mukwonago High School in Wisconsin.Devin was a Senior and Garret was a Freshmen. We both ran varsity for the boys and girls cross country teams that went to state meet in 2000, that year. We also ran varsity for the boys and girls track team in 2001, my junior year,...

Trump moved into the White House. When dealing with him, he really is a dirty louse. He never really won that 2016 election. When he looks at girls, he gets a major erection. He's Trump. He's Trump. He's Trump. I will admit. He's Trump. He's Trump. He's Trump. He's a piece of shit. We can't trust Trump as much as he lies. Some of us wish he would choke on his food and die. Putting up with him has really been a pain. Most of us agree that he's criminally insane. He's Trump. He's Trump. He's Trump. And he's out of his head. He's Trump. He's Trump. He's Trump. And we wish he were dead. Lock him up! Lock Donald Trump up. Lock him up! Lock Donald Trump up! Donald Trump is a blood sucking leach. Most of us agree, he should really be impeached. If he goes to prison, it'll be funny. He'll lose everything, including all his money. He's Trump. He's Trump. He's Trump. He's insane. ...

I really think I need a new job. Preferably something that offers better hours and better pay an hour, and hopefully something where they won't have me outside wearing a polyester uniform when it's so unbelievably hot outside. I hate when they make me have to get carts outside when it's incredibly hot or cold outside while wearing a polyester shirt and black pants. And to make matters worse, they seem to have me get stuck with carts regardless of whether or not I'm the only bagger scheduled to work a certain shift or there's other baggers there, besides me. Either way, who the hell gets stuck with having to do them? Me. And I have no idea how some people are even able to get 5 to 10 of them inside. I can only move 2 or 3 of them in at a time. And at the same time, having to do that when it's 80-90 degrees just feels miserable!

There once was a man named Trump On other people, he likes to dump. He thinks he so smart. But he has no heart. He's even stupider than Forest Gump. (No offense to Forest Gump, though) It's raining. It's pouring. Donald Trump is boring. I wish that prick would bump his head And not wake up in the morning.

Now, when Jason and I first started dating, there was a time when I didn't get to see Jason for a week or so because he had been on some business trip. And when I couldn't see him for a week or a few days, I started thinking about that song, "I Don't Want to Miss a Thing", by Aerosmith and what was all being said in that song. And I more or less felt like that, and that I could relate to the feeling of missing someone. And now more recently with all that's been happening with Jason being sick and having to be in the hospital for days and weeks at a time for getting pneumonia, I find myself missing him when he can't be at home at night with me. And needless to say, even more so than ever  every good moment we have together whether we're snuggling, watching movies together, joking around with each other is a moment I hope to treasure forever. So, I feel like I can relate to what's being said, even more. Especially about the part when the song goes,  ...

Well, let's see. So far's been a good day. Work wasn't too busy this morning. And then after work, I went home to change. Then I went in to get my eyebrows done, and then I went with my mom to get what I needed for making pasta salad and I didn't need to pay a dime to get my eyebrows done or my ingredients for the pasta salad I made. And then Jason got done with work earlier than expected which is good because that means he can get some dress up clothes for my cousin's wedding. And then hopefully tonight, we might be able to go to the carnival in Field Park that's going to be here from now until Saturday. But I need that distraction from thinking about what's going to happen, tomorrow. I can't believe I'm so nervous about that!

Let's see, what can I say about what's happened so far, this year: Well, my parents kicked off the beginning of the year by adopting their new rescue dog: Billie, an Italian Greyhound-terrier mix. And it really only took me 3 days for her to really warm up to me. I did accidentally lock myself out of mom and dad's house, but luckily I got to take Billie to my apartment and we just spent the whole day at my apartment hanging out. Lucky for me the apartment complex is pet friendly and will let us have dogs and cats. My mom, dad and I have also been taking Billie to the dog park and it's a lot of fun just watching her run around and chase other people's dogs, and I really think she should do agility. In March I've started a new tradition where I go to this Gelato shop and have Baileys Irish cream Gelato for St. Patrick's day. And mom finally ordered the movie classics, Darby O'gill and the Little People and the Gnome Mobile on DVD which I've been wan...

Well one of my cousins in Minnesota are getting married in almost another 3 weeks. I'm excited to see some of my relatives for the occasion but I'm also nervous because I want people I know to be happy to see me and I know I might have a tendency to say or do things that might rub people the wrong way, unintentionally. And I'm afraid I might get people mad at me without meaning to. It's like on 1 hand I'm excited to see my Aunt Jane's kids because I haven't seen them in a long time but I'm nervous because I just want us to get along and I want us to be able to enjoy each other's company. At the same time to hear all of Jane's boys have these drinking problems, it makes me feel depressed because I don't want them to have issues like that. I do care about them and I just want them to be ok. They are my cousins, after all. And I want to be on good terms with them, I want them to let me know that they appreciate it when I try to do something nice...

So, I talked to 1 of my friends today. It was more of an update, really. Anyway, she called and let me know that her husband finally set up a date so he could finally go take a road test, so that he can hopefully finally get his license to drive and get a car. And she said once he finally did that, she could finally get a hold of her lawyer and let him know so she can finally get her kids back. It's about time, too, if she does because they've lived with their sick demented dad, long enough. Girls, hopefully last year or this year will be the last year you'll ever have to live with your father, again.

Over the years since I've been out of high school, I've seen friends, relatives and classmates of mine get married while in their 20's and 30's. They get to have that ceremony where they get to wear the perfect dress, perfect tuxedo, they get to have the bridesmaids and groomsmen of their choice, as well as a reception with the wedding cake, the dancing, the DJ playing the music the bride and groom like, and all their friends and family members are there for it. Well in my case, that's just not going to happen for me. I had this idea on where I'd want to get married and have a reception. But now, it's just not going to happen, ever. Because like getting that dream job, it's not a reality. It's just a fantasy.  At the rate things are going, it's now looking like I'll never get married. At least not while I'm still young. By the time I finally do, I'll be as old as my dad's sister  if not older. The only kind of guy who will ever wa...

Favorite Def Leppard songs: 1. Pour Some Sugar on me 2. Rock of Ages 3. Animal 4. Rocket 5. Armageddon it 6. Hysteria 7. Let's Get Rocked 8. 2 Steps Behind 9. I Miss You in a Heartbeat

I fucking hate that the majority of people on both sides of my extended family are boys and men. I hate that I feel no sense of closeness with any of my relatives, because of my disability. I hate that they want nothing to do with me, because of what the fuck I have for a disability. I hate not just the fact that most of my cousins on my mom's side are guys, and that a large majority of them are mentally messed up in the head, and their taste in women absolutely suck. I hate the women they're with because those women are either sluts and whores  and bitches, or they're with someone whose almost 10 years older than they are. Probably because they just want someone to mommy them for the rest of their lives. And I already hate those women my cousins are with because they're pretty messed up in the head, themselves. And I hate that all my cousins on my mom's side of the family that are boys are alcoholics. YUCK! 3 out of my mom's older sister's sons are drunkard...

I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America. And to the Republic for which it stands, one nation indivisible with liberty and justice for all. Fuck Donald Trump. I do not pledge allegiance to the flag of the divided States of Russia, or to the Republicans for which they stand. One nation, under Trump, with liberty and justice for none. Again, Fuck Donald Trump!

Hello, just checking in. I have to say, the first 2 days of the week, it was so nice monday and Tuesday of this week, you'd never think it was going to be crappy the rest of the week. It should NOT be snowing in April. While it thunderstorms in Iowa, it snows up here. It's so not fair. I was kinda hoping I'd see it thunderstorm tonight. But no such luck. All it dod was rain on and off. Whenever the forecast says it's going to rain or snow, it usually does. But if ot says its going to thunderstorm, it doesn't. All it does is rain. Hopefully there will still be other chances for it to thunderstorm next week. Anyway,  been trying to lose some weight. This week it's just been yo-yo-ing between 133 and 134lbs. At the rate things are going with that, it's either going to take all summer just to get down to 120lbs. Either that, it's going to take a full year just to see my weight hit that number. Otherwise, I'm never going to see those numbers on the scal...

I guess I haven't talked about the Autism Gala this year, but anyway i'm I'm going again, this year. For me, the autism Gala has become a new spring tradition for me, since 2015. I never went to my prom when I was in High School. So for me, the Autism Gala is my prom night. Perhaps if I had gone to the same High School all 4 years, I probably would have went to prom. But the Autism Gala is even better than prom. Yeah, you still get to go to a formal place where you have to dress nice, and yeah it's expensive and you would have to get tickets. But this is better than prom. You don't have to worry about cliques and you don't have to be in high school to go. Anyways, as of yesterday, I finally found a beautiful dress at David's Bridal. It's a Tropical pink halter top dress. I would have originally liked wearing one of those other ideal prom dresses, but they're too big for me. If I was going to wear something like that, it would have to be custom made...

Ok, so supposedly I'm supposed to be getting help through DVR in getting a job. They're supposed to be helping me find a job that fits, yet they're telling me I'm the 1 who should be researching jobs online that I think I would want to have. I think they just said that because eventhough it's their responsibility to find me a job, they just want me to do the research and find 1 myself because they don't want to help me. And if I was able to get a job at Pick n Save as a bagger by myself without the help of DVR or Easter Seals, then I guess I don't need help finding a job. I guess I can get a job by myself. What I need is an agency that works with people who have disabilities by setting them up into a workplace right away without having to do an interview and just undergo training, right away, because clearly I can't get a job like a normal person, because I'm not normal.  Here I was hoping DVR could just help me finding a job, seeing if that's s...

So for the weather forecast the first week of March of this year goes as follows: Monday 3/4/2019-9 degrees. Yuck! Tuesday 3/5/2019-16 degrees outside. Only 7 degrees warmer than what it was on Monday. It's not good, but better than what it was, for Monday. Wednesday 3/6/2019-21 degrees, 5 degrees warmer than what it was for Monday. A total of 12 degrees warmer than what it was for Monday. Thursday-25 degrees. 4 degrees warmer than what it was on Wednesday. Friday-34 degrees. 9 degrees warmer than what it was for Friday. Saturday-39 degrees. 5 degrees warmer than what it'll be for Friday, and 30 degrees warmer than what it was on Monday this week. Now we're talking!

Ok, we're now in the first month of spring. But just because it's now March doesn't automatically mean temperatures are going to instantly get up into the 50's and 60's and have all the snow melt, instantly. This first week of March isn't even going to be very warm. Temperatures are however going to start going back up after today, but it's still not going to be very warm for this first week. But on the upside, March is also the month where we experience a drastic increase of temperatures in March. Although this first week in March isn't going to be very warm, the temperatures are going to be going back up, after today. Today, temperatures were only 8 degrees outside. Tomorrow they're supposed to be about 15 or 16. That's not good but it's better than what it was today. Then this Wednesday, temperatures are supposed to be about 20 degrees. Then on Thursday, it's either supposed to be in the lower to mid 30's or upper 30's. And th...

Well, we made it through another winter. Whenever Christmas and New Year's eve has come and gone, and we've entered another year, I have to wonder, how am I going to get through 31 days in January? And then when the 31st of January gets here, it's just like, yay! But then we still have to get through February. And then for the first 2 weeks it's all about Valentine's day. And then once Valentine's day has come and gone, the month is already halfway through. And then once Valentine's day is over with, I wonder how am I going to get through another 2 weeks? And now that next month is tomorrow, and today is the last month of February, I have to say, we did it! We made it through another winter season.  And as of this coming month, spring time is right around the corner, again.

Well, it's February again. The shortest month in the whole year. In only 3 more weeks from tomorrow, it'll be the first day of March. February 1-7 first quarter of February February 8-14 second quarter of February. February 15-21 third quarter of February February 22-28 fourth quarter of February. At least I can honestly say that today is the last day of the first quarter of February. So at least I can say that I made it through the first quarter of February. And I know once Valentine's day had come and gone, the month of February will already be halfway through.

So, about a few weeks ago, Facebook had presented to me a list of people that I might know and who's name happened to show up? Robby Warren. It appears that Robby Warren had created a new Facebook account since Jason and I had originally block his other profile on Facebook. Well, anyway after I discovered that, not only did I tell Jason about it, but I showed him just in case he tried to bother us on Facebook. And sure enough this week, he did. I got a friend request from him on Tuesday, January 29 2019. But I declined his request. And then the next day, Jason showed me that Robby Warren had also tried to friend him, as well but Jason didn't accept it, either. It's a good thing he didn't, otherwise Robby will think that him and Jason are actually friends. But if Jason doesn't accept it, at least then he'll know that they're not friends. Last night, Jason showed me the message that he sent Robby on Facebook stating that he simply cannot and will not accept hi...

I took some more pictures of my mom's dog tonight. This time, they started looking a little more professional: If she has to wear a Jacket like this when she has to go outside while it's so cold outside, does this mean she could wear other cute little doggie outfits as well? Such as little dog costumes for Halloween? I'll bet she'd make a great Princess, or Ballerina, or an Angel. Uh Oh! Did we just come across some great photo ideas for a future Calendar, here? I think we have: "September"? Or "March"? "April"? Either "April" or "May"?

January 6 of 2019: Silly Billie got to meet another member of the family. My sister. It took longer to warm up to her than it did me. Probably because when my sister first came in, she decided she'd rather be on the phone. As for me, I had to leave the room on the first day. But she just sat in the living room and played on her phone most of the time, instead of give this new puppy a dog treat, like I did. And then my boyfriend came over, and all she did was bark at him like crazy. At least she was wagging her tail, but still. I just wish it had gone better. I wish he could see the funny and sweet affectionate puppy she can be, once he got to know her. And now I don't know if he ever will because his first impression of her wasn't great. But I did recently find out, she's just a puppy. She's not even a year old, yet. And it took Billie all day to finally decide my sister was okay, too. I'm hoping by next month when it's time of the super bowl, she'll b...

So, as of this year, my parents adopted a new dog. An Italian Greyhound/Jack Russell Terrier Mix from a little dog rescue. I have to say, when you first meet her, she can be shy and a little scared at first. It literally took the first 3 or 4 visits before she appeared to no longer be afraid of me. I think giving her some dog treats and toys really helps. January 2nd, 2019 I called prior to coming over. My mom said she was very shy and it might take some time for her to warm up to me. And that when I first meet her, she might not want anything to do with me. So prior to my stopping over, I stopped at Pick N Save, and bought her a new dog toy and some dog treats to give her. And then, when I came over, I made sure I approached the living room where my parents were hanging out with this new little girl slowly and quietly. I did sit on the couch, and when I did this, she did make me feel a little nervous when she growled at me. But she was probably just nervous too.Luckily, I did ...

Well here we are, once again we're in another new year. My parents had been going to this dog rescue in Mukwonago for small dogs without me. And this rescue has connections with HAWS which happens to be where Jason and I got Boo. And on the first day of this month as well as the year, they brought home a new puppy. What a good way to welcome in the new year. I really need to upload some new pictures of her, too. All I know is every day I spend time with this new puppy, it keeps getting better and better and better. She's playful, she's funny and sweet.