Changes from last year and this year

 Ok, so I thought I should mention some of the positive things that have happened for both last year and this year. I know that the first 4 months of last year were probably the hardest I had to get through. At least things got more interesting as the year progressed as expected. When I think about the good stuff that happened last spring and summer, I think they might have been positive distractions from my grieving over Jason, as just a reminder that I can be happy again. 

I got to go to the Milwaukee Zoo in March. In April last year, I got to go to the Autism Gala towards the end of April. In May and June I got to celebrate birthdays with some old friends. I think I need to make time to hang out with some of my old friends and get my old social life back. I ended up in a relationship with someone from my autism group meetings when I had met him 9 years prior. He's been very supportive and understanding of the fact that I was with someone before him for a very long time, only for Jason to end up passing away on me. And he understands too if I wanted to keep any of Jason's things or do something in memory of Jason, and  he supports it. He also accepts my cats from my relationship with Jason,and he loves my cats as well. And I accept him and his son for who his son is, too. I like the fact that he has empathy for me at times when Jason did not. I like that he would like to ride bikes with me, and that he's not afraid to be a big kid at heart sometimes. I like that he likes going on carnival and amusement park rides. So do I. I like that he takes better care of himself.

I got to go to a couple of birthday parties. I also got to see a new public swimming pool in Wauwatosa, WI that isn't that far away from the autism society and I even told them about it.Got to do carnival rides at the carnival in Mukwonago, and the one at the EBTB during the 4th of July. Got to buy some new dvds. I got to go to Chicago with Adam and see some new stuff. I got to go to a friend's bridal shower and wedding, although I should have got her a gift to give her at her bridal shower but wasn't fully prepared. 

I know that after Jason's 1st year angelversary, those old feelings of being sad came back, along with the vivid memories from times we had been together. I'm wondering if maybe it might have been too soon to go into a relationship with someone new. Of course at my age, finding someone I would be compatible with nowadays is a lot harder to come by, who doesn't already have kids. Because now that I'm in my late 30's, a lot of people around my age are married with kids, by now.
I got to go to 6 Flags Great America twice last year. Once during the summer, and again for Fright Fest. I just wish I had wrote about my experience going with Adam to 6 Flags last summer, sooner. I'm just glad everything turned out ok, when I went with him last summer, even though it was just me and him. I was really nervous about going with him, because I wasn't sure if I was even going to have any fun, that day. It's not about where you go, it's who you go with. But once it brought back some positive memories that I could laugh about, it helped break the ice a little bit, and it helped me to get more talkative. So the day there ended a lot better than it started out. Thank God. 

At least I had someone to celebrate my birthday, Thanksgiving and Christmas with. It made my holidays of 2022 better than 2021.