Aspie chick with a wild streak

So, if I were to look back on where I was 1 year ago compared to this year here's the scoop: 1 year ago today, I was feeling horribly depressed. This year I'm actually not feeling as depressed for New Years Eve. Last year I was living alone in an apartment by myself in Waukesha, Wisconsin. This year, Jason and I are living together in Palmyra with a cat. I'm hoping that by next year we'll be living back in Waukesha together, once more. It might not be at the West Grove Apartments, but hopefully at least it'll be somewhere just as nice if not nicer. I've also been thinking about indoor water parks and how there was a place to hang outside the indoor water park.  I also would like to add that after having a disappointing year this year, maybe things will get better. Back at the beginning of the year, they had this chocolate molten lava cake drink at Starbucks that I wanted to try, but by the time I tried to go out there to try it, I was broke because my check for...

Well, I have to say, when leaving my parent's house the other day, I just remember wishing I could give Libby a hug, one last time, again. And in a way, it's hard knowing that when I came over, she was still alive. I laid next to her, one last time, let her kiss my face, one last time, and held her close. Then a vet came to do the Euthanasia. And at about 2:39 in the afternoon, she was gone. But she didn't look like she was gone. She just looked like she was sleeping. But we did end up laying her to rest. She looked so peaceful. It's going to be hard knowing she's not around, anymore, and acknowledging that we no longer have a dog. I know I wasn't ready to open my heart to any new dogs 5 or 6 months ago, and I know I won't be ready to open my heart to any dogs after what just happened 2 days ago. And between today and yesterday I've had moments on and off where I've wanted to cry. But luckily, I did contact my bank, and in a couple of weeks, I should...

I just hate how my brain processes information because it doesn't process it the same way. And sometimes it takes longer  to process certain things, such as feelings and words. I know 6 months and 13 days ago Jason had to let his dog go. And now here we are 6 months and 13 days later having to do the same thing with my family's dog. Who would have thought that after having to take care of them both earlier this year, they'd both be gone by the end of this year? It's just not fair.I know at least she got to have one last Christmas with the family. And in her final moments, she at least got to give me one last kiss. It's now starting to sink in for me that she's gone. I just wish she could have made it another 5 or 6 months. I also know that I had wanted to have a stuffed animal custom made by cuddle clones to look like my boyfriend's dog. But after what's happened, I think maybe it would be better to have one made in her memory, rather than Jason's do...

This Christmas is really going down hill. It's already bad enough that I'm feeling depressed about living out here, this Christmas. Plus the quality of where we live is falling apart.Cabinet doors are falling off, our kitchen sink has been leaking. And now I'm finding out my family's yellow lab we've had for 11 years, maybe approaching the end of her life.I think back on 9 months earlier, when I took her for a ride in the car. I thought she was doing so well for being 11 years old. She seemed fine over the summer. But recently, her health has really taken a nose dive. I guess I never really knew or noticed until just yesterday. Maybe I haven't really noticed it because either I haven't been over at my parent's house very much, due to trying to save money and gas, or I've been over so much, I haven't noticed anything. Why is it that after being good health all year, her health has to take a nose dive. Why? I mean, lately, she's been coughing, ...

Decided to have a change of pace on what I talk about, for today. So, today, my boyfriend, Jason is finally starting to feel better when it comes to breathing.And he even said that his lungs were slowly getting back on track. Since he's been having such a hard time with quitting smoking, his doctor finally decided to put him on chantix. And if Jason is ever to quit smoking, his lungs will go back to functioning more like they're supposed to, and hopefully he'll be able to do more things and breathe more freely on his own, without the need for being hooked up to oxygen.Maybe he'll even feel less of the need to use a nebulizer as well.

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So, this year, there were some things that I didn't get to do, and I promised myself that when that time came around next year I'd do them. Luckily, I don't have to wait too much longer to do them.In February this year, I wanted to try the Chocolate Molten Lava cake flavored Coffee at Starbucks. But I didn't get to, because the check I wrote for rent while living at Hickory Hill Flats had been deposited, leaving me broke. So, I made a promise to myself that if they have that again in February, next year, that I would be sure to try it, then. That's only 2 more months, away. Maybe when that time comes, I'll get to try it next year. And maybe they'll even have that kind of coffee flavor available for my Keurig coffee maker. I can see them doing that, too. So hopefully, any little bit like that will hopefully make next year better. In March of this year, the one thing I wanted to try at this Gelato ice cream place in Waukesha was Irish Cream flavored Gelato. We...

What to focus on for the remainder of the year: 1. Seeing that I live with my boyfriend and my cat, focus on just enjoying each other's company living together. 2. Enjoy the fact that we have a cat. 3. Focus on enjoying the fact I have a cat and taking care of his needs. 4. Focus on Christmas time with the music that's playing on the radio. 5. Focus on taking care of myself, and fitness so I can weigh the perfect weight for next summer. January: 1. Meeting with Easter Seals in job finding 2. going out of town for a couple days 3. seeing days getting longer 4. enjoying Valentine's Day

Let's see.I know with it Christmas time and all, I know I need to just focus on that. I guess I just need good things like a project or something to focus on doing and getting done. Maybe that way I wouldn't be so depressed about living out here. But living out here where we are is just SO Not Ideal. We do have 8 months left to live where we are. But there's still that 50% chance we might have to stay put for another year. I hope not. I suppose it's fair to say that Yes, moving can be stressful and over whelming. And if you were happier living where you were before you had to move, at all, moving can be depressing. Just been having flashbacks to the spring and summer of this year when I would ride bikes in the area where we were living. I miss that. And I do miss living in the Waukesha area. And with all the issues Jason's been having which is requiring him to have to go back into Waukesha, it's clear to me, we need to move back. Forgive me for my thoughts abou...

Reasons to move back into Waukesha for next year: 1. Jason and I miss living out in that area 2. We would be a lot closer to everything, in case there's somewhere we either want to go or we need to go. 3. We would be closer to all of our services that we need 4. Driving from Palmyra Wisconsin into anywhere in the Waukesha county can be a royal pain in the ass on account of how much gas it takes just to be able to drive to and from, within a short period of time. 5. Jason's health has become compromised resulting in the frequent trips he's had to make to the hospital. And as many times as he's been in and out of the hospital, it would be better if we lived back in that area so we wouldn't have as far to go, in case of a very serious medical emergency. 6. There's more to do out there and more opportunities for working if Jason were ever to look for work. 7. A lot of the places we either need to go or want to go is located in Waukesha, or at least the Wauke...

I think I really need something to really distract me. Today I went running and swimming at the gym for the 3rd time this week. I'm feeling better than I did yesterday, after hearing about who won the special election, last night in Alabama. But I can't help but keep thinking about how much I miss living where we did when we were living closer to everything so that if there was somewhere in the Waukesha county we either needed or wanted to go, we wouldn't have as far go, just to get there. And I want to move back into Waukesha. So, I'm glad that I contacted the Waukesha Housing authorities last week, and filled out an application for low income housing. And I did this for all 3 of us: Me, Jason, and our cat. And after having to take Jason to the hospital again, last night, as well as the number of times he's had to be in the hospital this year, it maybe just as well that we do move back into Waukesha, the next year. But if we do that and the only real way we would e...

Well, at least last night there's been some good news. Last night Doug Jones (Democrat) won over Roy Moore (Republican) for Alabama Senate. I think this is a good thing. And right now we need to vote blue because we really need to get rid of these complicit republicans out of the senate and so forth, and so that we can get rid of Donald Trump. He doesn't belong in the White House. And to all those who were so happy when Donald Trump won the election for President of the United States last year, if there's anything I would like to say to them about the results of the election in Alabama, it would have to be: Karma's a bitch. So is Trump, and so are you for voting for him. At least that's one good thing that happened for December of 2017. After having a good spring, a bad summer, and a bad September, some good things seemed to be happening for me and around the country for me and Jason, this month. In October we end up adopting a cat. In November, we get a nice new C...

Maybe I just need to remind myself of why we even moved out here. When we were living at West Grove Apartments in Waukesha, all Jason and I had money for was just to pay rent, and other things we needed to pay for and then we didn't have any money to afford more leisure stuff. So we moved out here to somewhere cheaper, so that we could save more money to do more leisure things. But there's not much to do out here, and it's so depressing. But if we were to continue living in Waukesha, or within the Waukesha county, but at the same time still have money for other leisure things after paying for what we need to, especially now that we have a cat that has needs which require money, we could always do it by living in a low income apartment in Waukesha. Especially now that we're both on social security. Luckily this week, I can say that at least I made a couple of steps towards us being able to move back into Waukesha, next year. After all, Jason did say that if we lived here...

Well, yesterday, I went to the gym and made an attempt to go for a run, yesterday. Then I ended up stopping at my parent's house to get help filling out that thing online so that Jason and I would be signed up for low income housing, together. And the reason I never got anything saying whether or not the application had been submitted is because there were things that we forgot to fill in. But after the 3rd attempt to fill the application out with some help, I finally got through. And I got an e-mail from them. So the good news is that at least the application got submitted. The bad news is that it may take about a month before I'm even able to check my status on the waiting list. But I signed us both up on the waiting list so that we can get a low income place in Waukesha, together. Honestly, when driving from here into any of the towns in Waukesha County, Eagle is the first town you have to go through. And Eagle has some pretty weird intersections. They're an accident wai...

Now earlier this year, I had seen this video on how there were always so many dogs at animal shelters, I did make a decision that I would one day like to adopt a shelter dog. Anyways, after Jason had lost his dog, we tried going to a local animal shelter, HAWS, 3 weeks after losing his dog. And if we had to let her go 3 weeks earlier, then it just wasn't the right time to be wanting to adopting someone new. Not when I hadn't gotten done grieving over the loss of his dog. And honestly, I don't think either one of us was ready. Jason went by himself and looked at animals by himself, and didn't even wait for me to come with him. And on top of it, he didn't even bring his wallet or ID. And when I tried looking at dogs there, I just kept getting sadder and sadder and sadder. Now if that's the reaction I'm getting just from looking at the dogs there, that means I"m just not ready. When people come in there and they're ready to take someone home with them,...

Well, today I did it. I called the Waukesha Housing Authority. And I'm feeling better after talking to someone on the phone. Now, maybe according to social security, the only way you can live with a significant other in low income is if you're married. But there is in fact a loop hole where you don't have to be married to that person, just so you and them can live in low income. When I talked to the Waukesha Housing Authority, I found out from them that you have to fill out an application on line that may include another person for low income housing. And then you do get put on a waiting list. All I know is that when I filled it out and submitted it, I didn't see any window saying that the application had been submitted, so I'm hoping they get it and can get back to me soon and contact me, as soon as possible. I know they're going to ask me some more questions like possibly who pays for what, and maybe even how soon we would need this low income apartment, and w...

Originally written 12/2/2017 So, lately I've been reminiscing yesterday and today about how this whole year has gone and where I've been living, this year. I think about how I lived at these West Grove Apartments on Kensington with my boyfriend. I think about how I'd go for runs through the complex and around by where I was living when I was living there, at the time, how I'd walk through there just to take garbage out, how I'd ride bikes in the area. And honestly, I just wish we could have lived there longer than 6 months. But the sad fact is with me being unable to have a job that'll fit me because I can't work, and my boyfriend being out of work due to health issues, we weren't able to afford to live there anymore. And it sucks. That was the perfect place to live when we were living there. It was beautiful. We had a nice sized kitchen, a dishwasher, a microwave, 2 bed rooms, 2 bathrooms, a master bedroom, a nice sized walk in closet for all o...

Well, after feeling depressed for these last couple of nights, reminiscing about how happy I was living at West Grove apartments earlier this year, and how much I enjoyed riding my bike through the residential areas where we were living together and going for runs in that neighborhood and that area, I'm finally feeling better tonight. But either way, I'm still going to call the Waukesha Authority Housing, and let them know that in the next year my boyfriend and I would like to get an apartment together in Waukesha and it needs to be a low income apartment and it needs to be pet friendly, and to just ask them about what would be some options as to where we could move into Waukesha that are low income and pet friendly. But we really wouldn't need to move into that new apartment until at least the end of August of 2018. At least I can say that out of the full year that we're supposed to be where we are now, I survived a quarter of the way. But I'm still going to call t...