Not into the Christmas spirit for this year

This Christmas is really going down hill. It's already bad enough that I'm feeling depressed about living out here, this Christmas. Plus the quality of where we live is falling apart.Cabinet doors are falling off, our kitchen sink has been leaking. And now I'm finding out my family's yellow lab we've had for 11 years, maybe approaching the end of her life.I think back on 9 months earlier, when I took her for a ride in the car. I thought she was doing so well for being 11 years old. She seemed fine over the summer. But recently, her health has really taken a nose dive. I guess I never really knew or noticed until just yesterday. Maybe I haven't really noticed it because either I haven't been over at my parent's house very much, due to trying to save money and gas, or I've been over so much, I haven't noticed anything. Why is it that after being good health all year, her health has to take a nose dive. Why? I mean, lately, she's been coughing, having some breathing problems. She's been having trouble walking and not just because she has arthritis. She's also been having seizures and she's starting to have them more frequently. Why is it that after she's been healthy all year, this has to happen to her, now. Mom says that when it comes time to let her go, they're going to have to have a vet come over to their house and just put her to sleep, there. I feel losing a family member of any kind is enough to ruin anyone's Christmas. Why does this have to happen now? This sucks! I don't want to let her go. I just hope she can at least make it to see another Christmas and another birthday. I'm not ready to let her go, yet.

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