Pet loss is so hard

I just hate how my brain processes information because it doesn't process it the same way. And sometimes it takes longer  to process certain things, such as feelings and words. I know 6 months and 13 days ago Jason had to let his dog go. And now here we are 6 months and 13 days later having to do the same thing with my family's dog. Who would have thought that after having to take care of them both earlier this year, they'd both be gone by the end of this year? It's just not fair.I know at least she got to have one last Christmas with the family. And in her final moments, she at least got to give me one last kiss. It's now starting to sink in for me that she's gone. I just wish she could have made it another 5 or 6 months. I also know that I had wanted to have a stuffed animal custom made by cuddle clones to look like my boyfriend's dog. But after what's happened, I think maybe it would be better to have one made in her memory, rather than Jason's dog. I already had a Christmas ornament made to look like Jason's dog for him to put up on our tree, this Christmas.