Aspie chick with a wild streak

Ok, about what happened to Jason. It was very tragic. But here's what happened: there was something on tv that I wanted to watch at 8pm. At the same time he was watching some DVDs and so I decided to watch what I wanted in another room so we wouldn't be distracting each other.At the same time, I could tell he was getting drunk.And when he got drunk, he'd get cocky, arrogant, obnoxious, belligerent, he would be slurring his words, and staggering if he walked, falling down, he'd break something, and then he wouldn't remember it, the next day. And I was getting mad at him for how he was acting because he was drunk. And lately this year up to the day he passed away unexpectedly, he had been using vodka just to help him fall asleep at night. Well, when I came out of the room after watching what I wanted at 10:30, I find him slumped over against the couch and his skin was all blotchy and his face was turning blue so I called 911. And then when the paramedics came i...

 I would have written about what happened exactly to Jason if I actually had internet as well as remember the password to this account a lot sooner.It hasn't been easy, mentally to talk about what happened, because I seem to be remembering little bits of new information at a time.It's already been 4 months since he passed away, unexpectedly. It feels like he's been gone for 4 years.Supposedly it can be 4 to 6 months when the grief is at it's peak, before someone can start to slowly really feel any better. I'm going to need another round of a grief share support group, because they're doing another session in the spring of next year. By that time, it will have been a little more than 6 months since it happened, but it won't even be a year since it happened. I hate how damn slow this computer is. Otherwise, I could go through old stuff I had wrote about Jason in past posts on facebook going into detail of what happened exactly. Earlier this year he said he wan...

 Finally, I have cable and internet in the apartment again. I can't say that this has been a good year for me lately. Whenever I think I'm having a good year, something always has to happen in the summer to ruin the rest of the year for me. I know last summer I wrote in a note book to the late Devin Wilson saying that I wish that he and my late boyfriend could have met each other. I know I had heard this song last year by Miley Cyrus called "Midnight Sky" where there was mention in the song of it feeling good for someone to be on their own and I associated myself with the last time I was single and it felt good. And I know that in early August I was just joking when I said that maybe when I die and go to heaven, I can finally get married when I get up there. Someone upstairs might have taken that way too literally, because this summer in mid August, my boyfriend of almost 11 years has died. I mean, after being together for nearly 11 years, he passed away this summer, ...

 There's this old clap song I remember hearing when I was a kid. To see that someone posted it onto facebook really takes me back! Except here's how I remember hearing it as a kid: Miss Susie had a tugboat.The Tugboat had a bell. Miss Susie went to heaven. The tugboat went to Hello operator. Please give me number 9. And if you Disconnect me, I'll kick you from behind The refrigerator there was a piece of glass. Miss Susie sat up on it, and cut her little Ask me no more questions. Tell me no more lies. The boys are in the bathroom zipping up their Flies are in the meadow. The bees are in the park. Miss Susie and her boyfriend are kissing in the D-A-R-K D-A-R-K  DARK!!

 Well, it's amazing we got through the first half of the year, already. I think this year is going by way too fast, if you ask me. I can't believe I broke my Iphone. I really liked using that phone, a lot. Anyway, I got a new phone. It might not be quite as good as what I had before, but I'll have to live with it until I can get something better. I also start working somewhere, as of tomorrow. Just hope I can pull it off. The good news is I won't be broke and with no money in my account, this month. And in a week from tomorrow, I'm going to be going to the Dells after I get off of work, since I'll only be working Mondays, Thursdays and Fridays. What we're going to do is, either next week or during the morning, I'm going to get up and start packing my stuff. And then after I get home from work, I'm probably going to change clothes into my summer clothes and we're going to be going to the Dells over night.

Ok, so here's how I've been spending my days lately, which is not good. So far, everyday I get up, I eat breakfast, go work out in the morning, have lunch, then I spend the rest of the day sleeping and then I don't sleep at night. Just the way I spend my days is a complete mess.That's just not the ways I should be spending the day. And I had a nightmare that they used to take people that were either considered very physically disabled or mentally disabled and that they put them on a "free express" where they're put on what's like a carnival ride that goes upside down, except the people on it don't wear seat belts, so they purposely fall from the "ride" to their deaths. And then the people behind it would clean up this mess. I remember in my dream running away from it, because I didn't want to have to watch it. And some of the staff people were saying, they didn't want to have to do it, but they had to do it. I'm so glad they d...

 So, one thing I've been wanting to do now for 4 years now is go to the Kalahari Resort to check out the outdoor water park, ever since they said they were going to put in this new outdoor water slide. Not only that but as of June last year, I made a pact with myself to put away at least 40.00 a month for a year. I think it's finally paid off. I know for maybe the last 2 months of the year I couldn't put some of that money away, but at the beginning of the year when I got my stimulus checks, I was able to pay myself back in January this year what I originally started saving up.On another good note, I also start working on the first Monday of June, this year. So not only will I be putting away 40.00 each month. I'll hopefully be putting able to put away twice as much or maybe even more. I just hope this job works out and that I can do the work. They're going to be having me work 3 days a week and 3 hours for each of those days, and I'm going to be getting paid 12...

 As of the end of April, I'm finally fully vaccinated. I know some people might not agree with getting the covid vaccine. But hey, it's their loss. It serves them right if they think some people would actually die from getting the vaccine, and then they get it. It doesn't matter what age you are, you could still get it.And I heard that even if you survive Covid, it could still cause serious damage to your internal organs. But anyways, I'm just glad I got it. I'm hoping this means I can go out in public and not have to worry about getting sick. I'm also hoping I can go to the Wisconsin Dells. And I want to be able to do more than just go to Noah's Ark. I might want to check out other water parks, other resorts, whatever! But either way, I'm just glad it's done and over with. And supposedly, doctors might finally have this Covid virus on the run and under control.

 All I can say is, I could sure use a vacation somewhere. It almost doesn't matter where. I'm also hoping this maybe the summer where I finally get to go to the Kalahari Resort in the Wisconsin Dells. Last summer I made a pact with myself to put away 40.00 each month for a year. Anyways, I was going to say that today I came across a website that lists some places to stay in Florida who at least have something like an indoor or outdoor water park that I thought sounded like good places to stay. There were at least 3 places that sounded good to me:  1.The Hilton Orlando in Orlando, FL,  2. the Hyatt Regency Grand Cypress, because they had water parks there. And then the 3rd one was the Margaritaville Resort. I thought of that one, because I know Jason likes Jimmy Buffet. And the resort had to be themed after Jimmy Buffet. But I don't know. Just thought it would be fun to go some place like that, or at least just look it up for fun. All I know is, I could sure use a vacation...

 With April being Autism Awareness/Acceptance month, I thought I'd share another slideshow I made from when I went to the autism Gala for the first time, when they would hold it every year in April at this Pfizer hotel in Milwaukee, WI. For me, going to the Gala every year form 2015-2019 was like Prom night for me. Especially considering that I never went to my prom when I was in high school. But how could I when I didn't even go to the same high school all 4 years? Well, since I didn't get to go to prom and didn't want to, I feel going to the Autism Gala really made up for not going to my High School prom. Now as for the reason why I chose the music I did, is because I think maybe it's safe to say, a lot of us on the spectrum just want to be accepted for who we are, as well as respected for who we are. I think we do just want to be able to fit in and make friends like everyone else and we want to also be respected and treated as equals in society. So for that, I fe...

 As the headline reads: Just thought I should share some of my photography I've taken in the spring of this year.

  Ok, so in my previous blog, I had talked about Autism The Musical and Autism The Sequel. And while talking about what I had in common with a little bit of everyone from those documentaries although I'm probably a lot older than they are, I had talked about how I do slideshows and montages on the computer using both pictures and certain video clips from cartoons, and footage I might have video recorded at one time. This slideshow is just an example of some of the slideshows I've done. And it's also celebrating the adoption of one of my cats from an animal shelter, from almost 4 years ago.  

 With the month of April being Autism Awareness month, I've decided to watch both documentaries, Autism The Musical and Autism The Sequel on dvd. (I made the DVD myself so I can just watch it, whenever) The documentary follows around 5 kids who are each on the spectrum and their families. Anyways,the first time I watched the documentary, Autism the Musical was in 2008 on HBO. (I also watched the sequel last year) And then after watching the documentary, I guess I can say that I can relate to a little bit of everybody. Some of them more than others. Now, when watching the documentary here's how I can relate each individual: Neal: According to Neal's adopted mom, he didn't really sleep at night.Maybe only 2 hours once. What a coincidence, I've got pretty crappy sleeping patterns, myself. I never really slept at night when I was a baby, either.According to my mom, I'd be up all night crying my first year of life, but then again, that's considered normal for bab...

 Just thought I'd take some pictures of the snow on our balcony. Here was just a Panoramic view of our balcony. Here's one end of our Balcony. As long as the snow is that deep, there's no way, I'm going to be putting anything away in storage, until this is gone. And here's the other side of the balcony. And this picture is to better emphasize how much snow we really got on our balcony. Maybe sometime between this week and next week, this stuff will begin to melt. We are in the final week of February, after all. And this week, temperatures are supposed to spike into the 40's. They're supposed to spike into the 40's, next week as well, so that should help. Next week is the first week of March, after all, and that's the month where the weather warms up into the 40's, and the 50's and 60's if we're lucky. And it's also the month when the snow begins to melt. So it'll almost seem as if it never snowed at all. I welcome it!

 So, what's to talk about tonight? Well, let's see. I know in the first week of February for most of it, anyway, temperatures were in the 30's and above freezing. Then in the 2nd week, we had that arctic freeze where temperatures were either in the singles or the teens. Last week, we got out of those temperatures and they climbed into the 20's. And although it's been snowing this evening, the temperatures are going to be spiking into the upper 30's and 40's on this final week in February! And if temperatures are getting that warm in this final week of February, I guess this means that spring time is right around the corner. It's supposed to be even warmer than it was today, so that should be nice. I know I really oughtta put some pictures here. Not sure of what. You know it's funny, I always wonder how I'm going to get through the first 2 months of the year, and I ask myself, what is there to look forward to in the first 2 months? Well,it gets li...

 I feel like I should write something. Not sure what to talk about, tonight. Been trying to go back on dieting and working out to lose weight again, so that my weight is back in the 120lbs range in time for the summer. I'm also contemplating keeping an exercise log about how many calories I can possibly burn by dancing with the game, Just Dance 4 on the Nintendo Wii in "Sweat Mode". Of course, I'm wondering if maybe I did a little too much too soon with that, this week, and might need to back off a little with the dancing, until I'm in a little bit better shape. I might have pulled a charlie horse in my back. My mid and upper back was so sore this morning, I almost couldn't roll over and breathe at the same time. I think I also need to keep a running log on not just how far I run, but also what my time is I finish in when I run that distance on my IPod. All I know is, it's good to hear I'm improving, at least. 4-5 years ago, I'd run a 2 mile and tr...

 Finally! Today is the beginning of a new era!The nightmare of Donald Trump as President is over, and now that we have a whole new administration, we can finally get rid of the COVID-19. Hopefully now that Trump is gone, we can finally return to normal and we'll have a better year, this year now that Trump is no longer president. And while our nightmare of Donald Trump is over, his will be just beginning, I hope. After he gets out of the White House, he'll be facing a large number of legal battles, which he's expected to lose.

Well, let's see: at the beginning of January, I figured there were 3 things to look forward to this month. 1. Seeing days get longer and lighter out after 5pm. 2. A new season of Pitbulls and Parollees starts. And 3. We get a new president of the United States to put our country back on track as we should. Well, I'd say this month of January has turned out a lot better than I thought. The first full week of January, there was a race for the senate in Georgia, and both democrats of Georgia won the race for the senate, which means the Democrats won back control of the senate and the house. Unfortunately that thing in the White House and his family members incited violence on our capital. But because of that, Donald Trump has been Impeached for the 2nd time which in my opinion is the highlight of last week. And in the aftermath of what Donald Trump pulled, not only has he been impeached but all his other resources have been, or are getting cut off. And this Wednesday, we get a new...